The Voice

It's so hard for me to listen to songs sung by a woman. I know why that is. I'm jealous. I can't sing to save my life. I was not blessed with a singing voice. Even if I took lessons, I would still be awful. There is no possible way I could be a good singer unless I had surgery, but that's not an option. I'm not that insecure. But still, I get upset and overwhelmed when I hear really good women singers. You're probably thinking, Oh Rachael, I'm sure you're not that bad! Has anyone ever heard you sing? Yes. People have heard me sing and they all said I sound like a 12 year old girl. Each time, it really discouraged me. It made me so mad that I don't even want to sing when I'm by myself. I'll try so hard to sing really well and just end up crying because I know I can't do it. God did not bless me with the gift of singing. But in the place of a voice, He put voice. No, not singing. He gave me the gift of using voice in my writing. If you aren't familiar with my writing, I like to add my personality into each post. I've been told that I'm pretty funny... Yeah, I'm hilarious. Deal with it. No but really, I like to add my witty humor and have conversations with myself in my writing. It's probably hard to understand, which makes sense... That was a contradicting statement.
But yes, I love writing. When i was young, I liked writing songs. Yes, I have always kept a journal (or diary if you prefer). It's important to write your thoughts out so that they aren't bottled up inside of you. It works for me. But maybe another method works for you. The point of this is to say that you shouldn't get jealous or upset because someone else can do something that you want to be able to do. But rather you should focus on doing what you can do. Or even better, learn how to do the things that you really want to do.

That's all I have for now...

-Rachael A.