Epiphanies

Girls like me, we're users. We find the thrill of chasing a guy so much fun. It's the most wonderful feeling. But once we get the guy, we're bored. The thrill is gone. The flirting isn't fun anymore. What's the purpose of flirting? It isn't necessary anymore. So we've tricked ourselves and someone else into thinking that we like them. It's the cruel, sick joke we play on ourselves. And it always ends badly.

I'm the type of girl who falls hard for the guy who just wants to have fun. The guy who isn't looking for the thing I crave so deeply. But lately, I've started to ask myself, what is it that I really want? I'm finally realizing what that is. I want something physical. I'm a sexual being. I don't want to fake myself into thinking I want something more, because that's how it's "supposed" to be. You see social media posts about how girls are these sensitive creatures and how we all want a relationship and want someone to love us. But on the inside, I'm of the male species. Sure, love is great. It's the best. What's good sex without fire and passion? But I know I'm young. I don't need a man to love now. What I want is someone who is my friend, who let's me sex them and wants to sex me. But in the situation I'm in, any kind of best friend would be great.

Times are changing. Sex doesn't mean what it used to. It's a purely physical thing. You can have sexual chemistry with many many people. But there's only a handful of people that you can emotionally, mentally, and spiritually connect with. So if you're a girl, and you find someone you want to have sex with, have (safe) sex with them. You're not a slut or a hoe or whatever. There are good guys out there that won't think differently of you. But please, don't be stupid. Be safe. STD'S are real. Pregnancy is real. It can happen to anyone.