I'm Falling

I met a guy.
He reminds me of a time when I always had a loving, tingling feeling.
But he makes me forget about the last person to make me feel that way.
He makes me forget about everything I've done in the past.
He makes me feel like I can be better if I really tried.
He makes me feel like a giggly idiot because everything he says makes me laugh.
But he makes me feel like I'm not good enough.
He doesn't intend to do that.
But sometimes, we fall for people totally out of our league.
Sometimes, you're an 8 and you fall for a 10.
Sometimes, you feel like being an 8 isn't good enough.
Sometimes, you're afraid of this feeling because you don't want to get hurt again.
So you hold back.
You don't allow yourself to feel that feeling you once felt.
You weren't good enough for the last person.
Why would you be good enough for the next one?
You tell yourself you deserve better.
You tell yourself you will find your person one day.
You try so hard to have hope for the future.
But it's hard.
You doubt yourself.
You try so hard to be good enough.
You don't believe anyone will want you.
But you know that's not true.
People want you.
It's just not the person you want.
Because rarely do we fall for someone who falls for us.

"Mistakes are painful, but they're the only way to know who we really are."
-Denny Duquette, Grey's Anatomy